Let It Go
So it’s been a weeeeek. Those happen every once in a while to remind you that you’re not in control of every aspect of your life. Actually, there’s really only a handful of things you can control when it comes to your personal self: what you put in your body, how you treat your body, how you react to things, who you have in your life… see the pattern? There’s really no point then, in stressing over the things you can’t control, like how your body reacts to what you’re doing. And yet somehow… we’re all so guilty of this type of stress.
In every yoga practice, they tell you to let go of anything that doesn’t serve you, watch it float out of your mind and send it into the universe. It’s not necessary to hold on to things that could potentially keep us sick or prevent us from moving forward. And even though I know this, I find myself overthinking things a lot, especially when I’m not feeling my best. Guess what happens when I do that though? I feel even worse. I can’t sleep, I’m mentally exhausted, and I can cry almost on cue.
I try every day to let go of things that do not serve me. I try my best to not dwell in things from my past that have hurt me, or in any type of negativity. At the end of the day, those things are not worth the trouble they cause my mind. They’re not worth me subconsciously holding on to them, thus preventing me from moving forward in a certain aspect of life.
This week has been challenging because my bum knee has been acting up so I’ve been over stressing how to treat it, but also how to continue with my workouts. I’ve had surgery on this knee for a shredded meniscus and then I also had platelet rich plasma (PRP) treatment, and it started to misbehave again a few weeks ago. It’s gotten progressively worse, and I’m trying my best to move forward and treat it on my own. Aside from the knee, I feel like it’s a been a week of no rest, no sleep, no recovery. Very weird for me because I have been sleeping, but I feel like I can’t get enough of it. So my mind and body are over exhausted, and I think it’s because I’m stressing about my knee without that stress being super obvious.
I’ve been in such a positive flow lately of mind/body/spirit progression, that I don’t want to have to stop and take steps back due to an injury. I know that it’s probably my body telling me to slow down, stop going to the gym 2x in one day, even if the second time is for yoga. All of the things I’ve been incorporating into my life this past month HAVE served me properly. Yoga is wonderful for my mind and my flexibility, but also because it makes me be present in the moment. Lifting keeps me strong, and spin keeps my cardiovascular health happy.
I choose today to let all these subconscious thoughts and stressors go. To take one day at a time, and not dwell on the pain I’ve been experiencing. I’m choosing to be proactive, to rest and ice my knee, to not push myself into yoga poses, to not lift super heavy with my legs, and most likely, to call my doctor just to see what’s going on. I choose the positive route, even though I’ve let myself succumb to pain, tears, and frustration this week. Because I always want to do whatever I can to keep pushing forward, and if I don’t, I feel like I’m reliving those days where I was super sick and unable to do anything. The positivity is to keep me sane, but mainly to keep me feeling strong and happy.